Confidence

My whole life, all i've ever cared about is what people think about me or what they're saying behind my back. I used to get so self-concious, that my confidence had dropped so low. I could never talk to a boy that liked me because i felt as though they were too good for me. I cannot take it anymore, it's ridiculous. If someone starts an argument with me, i usually would just it back and take the pain because i was too scared about what others would think of me. I have now ealised that al people thought of me was that i was much too shy and quiet to have a conversation with. People have told me that i'm a pretty girl but that didn't really help my confidence because i never believed them. If someone payed me a compliment i would never take it. I have now learnt to listen to the things people say to me, it's a little confidence boost.
One thing that always used to get to me was the 'likes' on peoples photo's on facebook. I always used to think that having 5-10 likes on my photo was awful because some girls that were ''popular'' got about 60-70, and they were the type of girls all the boys went for, but i have now realised they are also the type of girls that get drunk every night since they were 13 and slept with a different person every week. All Facebook seems to be is a ''popularity'' competition these days. I also absolutely hate the term ''popular'' as most people use it for the girls who get the most boys/ boys that get the most boys. Theres another word for them.. sl*ts (sorry for my use of language, I understand that not all boys/girls are sl*ts). Anyway, my point- popularity isn't about how big your chest is and how many boys go for you, it's about how many people like you right? This is something that always annoyed me throughout my school years. If you are in school/uni and are going through a tough time right now where you feel lonely, don't worry. we’ve all been there. But it’s time for you to realize how common these things are, and that they’re experienced by most people. Those people get past them such as myself, and you will too.

-TheMakeupGeek <3

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I'm very new to this so I thought that one way thats easiest to let all of you know me better is by doing a tag! This is a '50 questions' tag, so i'll warn you now, it is long haha!

 Where were you three hours ago?

at 3pm I was at school, in Chemistry class, messing around..

Who are you in love with?

No one. What about Ed Sheeran? One Direction? ..Do they count?

Have you ever eaten a crayon?

Nope, I'm pretty sure they wouldn't taste too good..

Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

Yes, my iPod Touch cover, A Scarf, My Barry M 'Shocking Pink' nail varnish.

When was the last time you went to the mall?

Last weekend, I bought loads from Primark! My favourite shop!

Are you wearing socks right now?

Yes, fluffy ones & slippers with my Pj's! So Comfy!

Does your family own a car worth over $2,000?

Not sure. Firstly because I live in the UK and we don't use dollars ($) ..and secondly I am really unsure of what price my car is.

When was the last time you drove out of town?

I don't drive.. But probably a week or 2 ago.

Have you been to the movies in the last five days?

No, but I'm going tommorrow to see twilight for the third time. I love it!

Are you hot?

No, I'm freezing ;-)

What was the last thing you had to drink?

Diet Coke. Love the stuff!

What are you wearing right now?

Primark Pj's, and slippers!

Do you wash your car or let the carwash do it?

Carwash all the way!

Last food you ate?

Steak & chips! & Then Ben&Jerry's -Cookie Dough ice-cream! yum!

Where were you last week at this time?

Honestly cannot remember. My memory is awful!

Have you bought any clothing items in the last week?

Yes, A quilted jacket, Red/Wine coloured jeans, Chino's, A few top's from Newlook and Topshop, and headbands from Primark.

When was the last time you ran?

Haaaha-me? running?....hmmmm, think it's been a while!

What's the last sporting event you watched?

Hate sport! I do watch the rugby sometimes though as the rugby players are rather goodlooking and fit! haha. I never acctually understand what's going on though!

What is your favourite animal?

I'm allergic to most animals sadly! ..But I love little micro-pigs, they're so cute! Some would disagree, but I think they're adorable!

Your dream vacation?

Do you know what? I have no idea. Probably to New York/LA/California ..I've always wanted to go sinse I was only a little girl! Although I am quite fond of lounging about and soaking up the sun!

Last persons house you were in?

Other than my own? My friends.

Worst injury you've ever had?

Crawled on the kitchen floor when I was a toddler, smashed a glass and put my hand on it! Cant acctually remeber it but I had to go down the hospital to get it taken out! I've also sprained my ancle a few times! But nothing too serious, never broken any bones!

Have you ever been in love?

Yes.

Do you miss anyone right now?

Yes, a lot!

Last play you saw?

Went on Christmas-Eve last year to see Grease the musical!

What's your secret weapon to lure in the opposite sex?

I'm quite shy, but I usually just give them a little smile and drop hints.

What are your plans for tonight?

Stay in and watch Big Brother! Such an exciting life..

Who was the last person you sent a MySpace message or comment?

Never had Myspace, never really thought it was any good.

Next trip you are going to take?

Probably my holiday to Spain

Ever go to camp?

I used to go camping with my family.

Were you an honour roll student in school?

Don't know what that is, i'm from the UK haha!

What do you want to know about the future?

I'm very keen to meet a fabulous man, get married and have babies.. So i'd want to know things like that. BUT I dont think i'd want to know too much really.

Are you wearing any perfume or cologne?

Yes, 'Just Pink' by Next. It smells so good!

Are you due sometime this year for a Doctor's visit?

No, I never really go unless I have a problem.

Where is your best friend?

In her house.

How is your best friend?

I have many bestfriends, but i'm sure all of them are good!

Do you have a tan?

Not at the moment, it's winter! But usually in the summer!

What are you listening too right now?

Ed Sheeran- Lego House

Do you collect anything?

Magazines, Shoes, Make-up, Jewellery.. Just all little girly things!

Who is the biggest gossiper you know?

Everybody likes a good gossip!

Last time you were stopped by a cop or pulled over?

Never, I don't drive.

Have you ever drank soda from a straw?

What a strange question-of course I have! ..I get a coca-cola everytime i go to Maccy D's (Mcdonalds)

What does your last text message say?

It's from my friend saying "They're only cancelling one though!" ..we were talking about concerts!

Do you like hot sauce?

Nope.

Last time you took a shower?

This morning.

Do you need to do laundry?

My mum does it! I do it sometimes though!

What is your heritage?

British!

Are you someone's best friend?

I sure hope so!

Are you rich?

In my dreams, haha! Nope, I've never had money, probably because I enjoy spending it.

What were you watching at 12am last night?

'Big Brothers- Bit on the side' ..I'm obsessed with BB!